God Hear My Call.

I need to have a moment of honesty.  I purposely don’t post much on social media right now because I don’t want everyone to read my word vomit.

I don’t want to get on FB Or Snapchat and tell the truth.

i am pregnant and miserable. I’m angry and lonely.  I isolate myself but also feel extremely abandoned.  I miss me.

I have lost touch with myself.  I don’t leave the house for a couple weeks sometimes.  This is my truth.  It’s ugly.  I have never felt uglier.

i am stagnant and unprepared. I wreak of depression and anxiety.

I am unemployed.  I am 5 months pregnant and spend most days in the bed sick, depressed, crying.

I am 5 months pregnant and vomit literally everything I eat and have multiple migraines weekly.

I wish my parents and best friends were in the same city as me. I think about how I lived in MI and could visit my aunt and uncle.

Sometimes I just want someone to come sit with me or come take me out of the house, even if it’s just to sit in the car.

I have tried everything. Crackers, lemons, jello, protein, regular food, praying, fruit, smoothies, fasting, no meat, no dairy, water, pop, cranberry juice, vitamins.

I want this to be over.

this is my ugly truth.